Miller Moments

Cohen is just a little devil inside waiting to come out. For example, when I stack up blocks, he holds out his hand and looks at me to make sure I am watching, as if to say"I'm gonna knock them down" and then whack - he does. Last night he crawled up on top of his rocking horse and held onto the tv stand just to see what was up there. Definitely need to keep a close eye on this guy. Mothers really should come with eyes in the back of their heads.

It was a big day today for Carter. He had his Preschool Christmas concert in the afternoon.

Tonight, it was Benny's (a boy from school) 5th birthday, which was a bowling party. He did pretty good at bowling considering it was his first time. However, you could see he was disappointed in himself from his actions - very competitive and wants to be good at everything the first time - I wonder who he gets that from. All in all though, I think he had a good time.

Of course Cohen had to be a part of it all and was trying to do what the big kids were doing.

Tuesday night mom and I went to a memorial service at the Funeral Home. It was a very nice service and lots of tears were shed. It is very difficult to attend these functions but I feel I need to as I don't get much time to grieve with the kids and being so busy at work. I find the few minutes a day that I am not running in some direction that it hits me like a tonne of bricks - memories and tears come flooding back. It is difficult around the kids as I still cry when I talk about dad and then Carter gets upset if I cry and doesn't want to talk about it so it has been a struggle for me to deal with all my emotions. I love and miss you so much dad!